Now 3 days feels like one :-). You know that feeling when you have so, SO much to do and you wake up all amp'd and racing before you've even gotten out of bed? Not necessarily in a bad way, just mind moving a million miles a minute, gotta get moving, not enough minutes in the day kind of way. That's me right now. The rest of the weekend training was really good, it went really fast, and it's already Tuesday.
I went to a super intense class on Sunday morning even before the program started, so Sunday was especially long day. The entire class this woman two rows in front of me (this is a super packed class with a cult following), was rocking out to the music eat entire time. Literally. The music was good, I'll give her that. But did you know that you can sit down into chair pose AND shake your bootie and move your arms like you are in a dark club on a Saturday night? For reals. The capper was when she pulled her cell phone out of a side pocket in her yoga pants---and LOOKED AT IT-- during class. Not cool. But then I caught myself being all judgey and I thought, "what if she's a doctor and checking her phone because she's on call and she's rocking out because it's the only free time she gets to combine yoga AND dancing??" Just for the record, I seriously doubt either of those, but I tried to change my internal dialogue. See, yoga IS working!!
The challenge, after a long discussion on truth during the yoga philosophy part of Sunday's lecture, was to have 48 hours of absolute truth. Meaning 48 hours where you live your truth, every minute. You say yes to what you want to do, no to what you don't want to do. You say what you believe, and you present yourself to the world every minute as your "authentic self". I had to think about this. Do I inadvertently live half-truths on a daily basis? Do I get stuck saying or doing things because I feel like I 'have to' ? I actually don't think I do really, but I'm really trying to explore it. I'm trying to pay attention, because I have a feeling those things can be subtle sometimes, especially when you are older. There are a lot of young people in the class....mid-20's, late 20's. I do remember doing things I didn't want to do, and feeling like I "had to" be a certain way during those years....you barely know who you are so you try different personas out all the time. As you get older though you settle into things you think you believe, and sometimes the world around you starts to set them into cement even without you realizing it (the people that you are with, the environment you are in). I don't think I'm living a lie by any stretch, but I wonder how many truths we hide from ourselves out of convenience, and because the truths that we have thus far presented have just taken on a life of their own, and it seems to hard to unravel them.
On a simple level though, I love the concept that you simply don't have to do anything you don't want to do. You just don't. The consequences might be tough, or might not be what you want, but you have the ability to set everything about this day exactly the way you want it.
I hope everyone is finding minutes each day to do something for themselves that lights you up. I don't expect we can all be greedy and get a full hour in, but if you can get 5 minutes in, take the time. Find a quiet place, sit, breath deep thru the noise and just let yourself be for a minute.
That's what I'm going to do before I jump in to work because we have a huge Eileen Fisher shipment to play with, and Margaret O'Leary just arrived which is super cute. Tomorrow, the biggest Hard Tail tee group comes in and I can't WAIT. Finally, my beloved long skinny tee comes in a short sleeve version, and just in time for al this sun we're getting!!
Signed, ME {lv}
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