I don't usually go to yoga on the weekends, but I did today. It was a great class, and the messaging was all about acceptance. Acceptance of yourself, of the things you can change and the things you can't. It was a really good class, and I needed it. You know how I know I needed it? As I lay there in the first couple of minutes of class, when I was suppose to be thinking about relaxing, and focusing in, I had crazy monkey mind instead. The kind that goes like this..."I left the kids alone, hope they are ok, Lucia is up with her friend and she said her room smelled funny, but what if you lights a candle, and what if her friend knocks it over, and then her drapes catch on fire, those drapes are so long, and then the whole room goes up in flame, where are the fire distinguishers downstairs, would Romeo and Gia know what to do, what about the dog, maybe I should go home, I should really be there in the morning, they are going to make a mess in the kitchen, I hope no-one uses the new sharp knife, what if they end up getting cut, what will they do, we probably don't even have bandaids, but what if the ambulance has to come, i should have told them not to cook anything, boy my underwear feel tight, I wonder if I shrank them."
For real. That stream of consciousness was about 10 seconds, and it only got worse from there. Sometimes I shocked by how much your mind can get squirrelly and spend so much energy running around chasing nothing.
In the spirit of acceptance though, I recognized that I just was what it was. That was where I was at today....and it was ok. I worked with it, and did the best I could.
My only other reminder for everyone is that you are hotter than you think. If you doubt me, just look back on a picture of yourself 10 years ago (long story, but suffice it to say, I'm looking at old photos.) I bet you'll think, "dang, I looked pretty good." We are our own worst critic in the moment. So just remember that this is as young as you'll ever be from here on out, and you are hotter than you think. Appreciate yourself, you are beautiful!
Signed, ME {lv}
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