Sometimes you have to just go full warrior to get thru the day. Today was that day. Mondays are always a push, but today followed several days of no sleep, and I still had a sick kid at home. I just felt spent all around, and depleted. John comes home tonight, so really the day was just about powering thru because once he's home to balance out the energy in the house, all will be good.
Having him gone was hard in odd ways this time. Even when I wasn't driving the kids around or doing stuff for them, just having their energy in the house and feeling like I was the only one there to absorb it, that felt hard for some reason. Plus they had friends over a lot, so you can just amp up the energy there, and noise, and again, it felt like a lot to absorb. I don't think there is any logical reason why physically having John in the house would have changed that situation, but it feels like it does. The other thing I hated and underestimated (which I've complained about a lot already) was the weekends and having to stay up to make sure the girls came home by curfew. I HATE staying awake late (it's one thing if you are out at a cool dinner or bar), but just sitting at home, it was torture. John's a night owl, and it's one of the few ways our perfectly opposite personalities actually mesh perfectly because he doesn't mind staying up for them. Likewise, I don't mind getting up early and feeding the little kids.
I did, despite having Gia home from school, steal away for a quick hour to go to yoga. That was my loving act of kindness to myself. I told her it was to sweat out any flu germs she may have given me. Not sue if that's possible, but it sounded good. The yoga wisdom today was the teacher's offering of "determination." Which I felt like was perfect for me because determination requires a vision of where you want to go, and pushing thru the hard stuff--and I had both of those things (yes, on a micro level I realize, but sometimes you have to work one day at a time.) I love yoga, sometimes it really is what holds me together.
I was also comforted by the new Prairie Underground that came today. The Adrian tee--AMAZ-ing, the detailing is so cool, and yet it's a classic wear-with-anything tee. I'm leaving this pic big so you can "maybe" see the detailing. It's a hard to describe, inset raglan type seam, with ruching. It's just cool looking. Also love the neckline, it's not scooped, but it's not crew either. I want two in each color that's how much I dig it.
Signed, ME {lv}
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