I know I talk about yoga a lot, but I can’t help myself. Today was an intense class. The instructor is one of my favorites, and she had just come off of an intensive weekend training and she warned us that she was a bit raw. This is what I love about yoga, it’s so much more than just the poses, it’s really all in your head, that’s where the real work is.
Anyway, she talked about she felt during this training program she attended, which basically amounted to “unworthy”. It was that feeling of walking into a room and feeling like everyone had a better job, more education, better outfit, prettier, funnier….basically that everyone is out of your league. Who hasn’t felt that way? Part of the training during the weekend was to tap into what was holding you back, what made you feel unaccepted, or unworthy. She shared a memory of her father (who died suddenly when she was in her teens), and how he had come to a diving meet (after rarely ever coming) and said, “I just thought you’d be better by now.” So part of her cathartic weekend, was coming to accept herself, and her father’s limitations, and forgiveness. All in order to move thru them and keep them from holding her back or being the excuse that held her back. As she was telling her memory of her father she broke into tears. It was such a vulnerable moment for her, and she was willing to share it with everyone. Another reason I love yoga.
She quoted someone…I think it was Eckhart Tolle, who said, “First there must be acceptance. Then you can begin.” All the things (insert people, circumstances etc.) that hold you back, are things you haven’t fully accepted yet.
She went on to teach a hard ass class….lots and lots of arm work. Another reason I love yoga.
On a totally other note, my other favorite thing (clothes) deserves a little shout out too. I just got the Anni Kuan Kite top, and can I just say how great it is?? I think this is such a perfect morphing top….it can morph from day to night, or season to season. Super cute on too (love the sleeves), and I think it will make a great travel piece. I like that it isn’t black, but it’s not a washed out grey either—it’s that great in-between that manages to still look fresh and not dreary. It took me a long time to warm up to Anni’s fabrics (I couldn’t get past the fact that they weren’t “all natural”) but I have come to totally trust her ability to find fabrics that feel, wear, drape and wash really, REALLY well. I’m never disappointed. I have her flight pants in black, but now I know I need them in the grey too because it would be fantastic worn with the top—a lá jumpsuit style.
I will also say, that I’m enjoying my Child perfume and body cream almost every day. Last I heard Cammi had totally converted to loving it too. Initially when I asked her if she liked it she said, “well, it’s not for me really.” The smell changes a lot on your skin, and at first smell from the bottle it can feel a little bold, but softens and mellows so beautifully on the skin. She now has confirmed she’s completely in love with it too. I just really adore the small roller ball size, it’s always in my purse and I love that I can dab it on during the day.
Lastly, Romeo wore shorts and a tee shirt today….it probably didn’t get warmer than 52 degrees outside. When we walked the dog in the late afternoon he said, “mommy, I hate to tell you, but I think it’s because you are over 40 that you are cold because I’m always comfortable OR I’m too hot.” So apparently my advanced age is making me cold. Who knew?